Updated: Jan 22
I have a question. Are you struggling to find assignments outside of yourself in this season? Recently, it dropped in my spirit that many are trying to rebuild and put their hands to work, but can't find anything. Then, some are working extra hard and still feel empty, unfulfilled. Perhaps, there is a reason for this?
First things first, please don't get me wrong. Serving and helping others is an absolute honor. No, I'm not referring to serving in the daily tasks and assignments that come with being a wife or mom and taking care of children. If you're blessed with those ministries, that is an honor too. I am referring to when we try to go outside of our "homes" to rebuild ruined walls in places and people's hearts and lives without allowing God to rebuild the ruined walls within us first. I know the dangers of doing this all too well. It's a trap of wanting significance and desiring to leave an impact in the lives of people so badly that you'll sacrifice parts of your process on the altar of helping others. In the end, you manufacture fruit in your life that gives the appearance of wholeness just enough to take on the assignment of healing someone else's brokenness. Love, you can't take on the burdens of others if you're struggling to carry the weight of your own. Nor can you help someone else build in their life what you haven't made in yours.
Has the thought crossed your mind that maybe YOU are your assignment in this season? I know, as selfish as that may sound to some. But really, have you considered that God wants to work on your temple? Your mind? Your heart and spirit? Maybe it's time to rebuild healthy walls that are ruined within you? Life certainly has a way of stripping us of healthy boundaries and causing us to build unhealthy walls to protect ourselves. Harmful barriers that prevent the right people from entering and gaining access to our hearts because we've placed bricks in the hands of abusers, manipulators, and deceivers too many times, hoping they could build with us. Instead, we were left damaged and broken.
Did you know that walls serve many purposes? They are used to support roofs, floors, and ceilings in buildings, help as boundaries; protect from outside threats, and provide shelter and security. Walls also store various types of utilities that are essential to our everyday living. For example, the walls inside your house contain electrical wires that enable you to have electricity. Those same walls retain plumbing so that water can flow freely for your use, and they also store insulation to keep hot and cold air in and out. If walls are essential to building a house in the natural, how much more important are they spiritually? Durable and healthy borders and boundaries are essential.
Perhaps, you've gotten comfortable standing behind a wall of guilt, shame, doubt, unforgiveness, bitterness, loneliness, selfishness, and other broken barriers in the name of preserving yourself from pain?
Come with me on a quick journey through the bible to the book of Nehemiah, where God assigned and sent him to rebuild the broken walls of Jerusalem. Nehemiah was so troubled by the walls being torn down where his ancestors were buried that the king noticed how sad his spirit was. After Nehemiah told him why he was sad, he received permission and instructions from both the king of the Land and The King of Kings to rebuild the ruined walls. Nehemiah moved in silence to inspect the walls and determine what was necessary to rebuild because he was aware of the land's opposition. There were many Ammonites, Ashdodites, and other "ites" who weren't all that excited or happy about hearing of Nehemiah rebuilding the walls. They were probably the very ones who contributed to tearing the wall down in the first place. Nehemiah then called on the Jewish priests and others within the administration to help him rebuild. The strategy God gave him to rebuild the wall was simple but so profound. He told the workers to rebuild the ruined portions of the wall in front of their own house (see Nehemiah 3:28). THIS REVELATION IS POWERFUL! I love how God's commands are so simple and to the point, but we choose to make them difficult. This flesh is something else sometimes!
Please take a moment and envision them working as a team to rebuild the walls of Jerusalem, focusing only on the wall's portion directly outside of their house instead of the entire wall. This right here speaks volumes. Too often, we get distracted from working on what God places in front of us because we're too focused on trying to build in our own lives what looks like our promise or, better yet, someone else's. We aren't content with our portion, so we covet everybody else's. We can't work on the character flaws and broken areas in our hearts that need healing, transformation, and rebuilding because we're too fixated on what needs to shift in the people around us.
So, when was the last time you took a good, long, hard look in the mirror and confronted the issues you don't like about yourself? Or do you always overlook them and rush out to fix those very things you see in your children, spouse, or friends? Beloved, you can't help anyone restore in their life what hasn't been demolished and rebuilt in your own. So, in this season, perhaps you need to focus on the wall (a.k.a. person) in the mirror!
Tacondra, What does that look like? Well, I'm glad you asked because now I can share a few ideas and ways to help focus on rebuilding you:
1. Identify and uproot character flaws and areas in your heart in need of healing. If you often get offended and cut people off because you "feel some kinda way" about them, perhaps, God is holding up a mirror in your face to identify deeply rooted issues in your heart. The problem is not always PEOPLE; sometimes, it's something in your heart that's the issue. Ask God to purify and clean your heart. Get healed!
2. Develop the Fruits of the Spirit: Are you rooted in the Joy of the Lord? Do you practice patience, kindness, and gentleness? Do you have self-control? Have you learned to take responsibility for who you are and your actions, decisions, and choices instead of passing them over to someone else? It's essential to learn how to conquer, calm, quiet, and control your soul before telling someone else how to do the same.
3. Mature in wisdom, knowledge, and understanding of the Word of God: How often do you spend time at the feet of God? Do you want His presents more than you want His presence? Are you maturing in the things of God, or has your growth and development been arrested in the Spirit? Does your soul act like a child that wants what it wants whenever it wants it, and do you give in to it? Remember this; God did not give authority to the soul. He gave authority to the Spirit. So, your soul must submit to your Spirit!
4. Focus on putting your hands to work on what's in front of you: Too often, we spend much time focusing on what's behind us that we can't see the assignment God has placed directly in front of us. Your past is behind you for a reason; so, leave it there. Your purpose is ahead of you for a reason; pursue it enthusiastically.
5. Tear down the barriers in your soul that are keeping you distant from God and people! This is a wall you must be intentional about destroying daily!
Yes, you will encounter opposition while rebuilding your walls. The enemy will send distractions, attacks, confusion, devise plans to diminish your progress, and destroy the work you're doing. BUT GOD IS WITH YOU! When Nehemiah and the others were threatened and intimidated by the people who wanted to destroy their work and kill them, they continued to labor! With one hand supporting their load and the other hand holding their swords. Don't forget to put on your armor and carry your sword! Remember, the Lord is fighting for you and with you! He is standing right beside you, instructing and handing you the tools to rebuild, brick by brick, what the enemy ruined. Our Father is working diligently to ensure that what He's rebuilding in you THIS TIME is strong enough to sustain the storm, wind, rain, and fire when it comes again.
Be encouraged, love, and remember you are Built to Last!
I love you!